Break

I am taking my break, now. I will be attempting to eat more like a normal person, which means not eating whatever I want whenever I want, more like a light breakfast (the peanut butter bars I eat every day because they are so good, and so rich in protein), a normal lunch with coworkers, an afternoon snack (usually a bar), and a reasonable supper; plus ice cream, if I get the chance!

For example, on Monday I ate a ThinkThin peanut butter bar for breakfast, I had one of the cookies a coworker's wife made for work (as opposed to eating 8, like I used to), I had a plate of Indian food and an unsweetened chai for lunch, another cookie and a cherry larabar about 3:00, and had Thai food with white rice for supper. I also stopped for a Wendy's frosty on the way home. I also ended up having a small amount of Chinese food that was left over at a friend's company where I went to visit him, which was fine since it was a small amount and not too unhealthy, but I also had an egg roll, which was silly. First of all, I knew it was going to be oily and should have thought it through, secondly, I always seem to remember how much I liked egg rolls when I was younger, and ignore the fact that I really don't enjoy them any more. So it was a dumb idea to eat it. I'm not really beating myself up over it, but it's these bad habits that got me to the state I was in previously. I'm not sure why I can't really break those habits, yet.

Yesterday was a peanut butter bar, Greek lunch with coworkers (and I had the rice and the pita with the chicken and salad, thank you very much), a cashew bar in the afternoon, and Chick-Fil-A for supper, where I had an 8-piece nuggets (instead of the 12), a chicken wrap, and a caramel coffee shake. It was nice that I actually wanted the wrap instead of the fried chicken sandwich. I also had two chocolate-covered altoids from a coworker's supply in the afternoon, and 4 pistachios in the morning. Work grazing was a bad habit I needed to break, and I need to be vigilant. All in all, a better day.

Today I stopped for coffee at the corner gas station by work, and I had a small chocolate with my coffee; I was tempted to eat other junk, but resisted.